StepBack

           Actually, this is my second time writing in English. The first article had been erased due to private consideration. Deep consideration. I know there's much of mistake such as, grammar or anything else, but please pay attention only to the story and much effort of writing this. Thank u. (^-*)

             I written this topic someday ago in Bahasa, but some idea came up, why not writing again in English? So here I go. I read a column in newspaper, which is just publish in Sunday's printout. After some weeks not reading it because the previous topics was gradually become unattractive, I found the latest article was so thoughtful. It is about The Writer who made decision to cut "the one side of friendship" of His. Then, I try to put myself on his shoes, think and analyze, how about mine?

           I do have the same case, me, try harder to make friend with some people and just believe I was accepted to be their friend. Which is not. They made excuses to avoid me. I am not blind to see those sign that likely told me, "Go away...". But me, with naif thought that always push a side the truth my heart telling me, try to assure  myself, their just maybe in such of a bad mood or maybe busy, and many other maybe I told to me.

             I know, I did selection of my friend too. Friend is a family that we choose them by ourselves. Which means, we must choose them as carefully as looking for wife/husband. But the problem is, they are not being honest. I can accept  if they told me straightly that they don't have intention to being friend with me or through the "body language" which mean rejection. But it is rude to make some same-excuses every time just to avoid to meet me or hang out with me. If the reason they do that because of something called politeness, then they are wrong and I am Angry.

            So, just like the writer did, I also made up a decision not to push anyone as my friend, also to cut off "the one side of friendship' of mine. I called it Step Back. Doing this mean I appreciate myself as human and also give myself a chance to find another friend that maybe more sincere than those peoples. Step back not always mean lose. In this case, means, I give myself lot of time and chances to doing something else than just chasing peoples who doesn't want me in their live.