THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM

          It is hard to be a good-kind-hearted person. Experiences taught, It would be so much easier to be an evil-annoying-jerk person. It's human nature to put private matters as priority than to think about other. "That's your problem", is always said to other, when we decide not to get involved with other's problem.  Easy and heartless.

          Yes, the world we live in is not a friendly place. Mostly in big city, where people more concern about their private things than to concern other. Recently, I thought I am a good person but actually not. Too focus to myself so I had blinded to people around me. For example, I was crossing at the zebra-cross and saw an elder people, trying hard to move his legs to cross the street. I was easily ignored him and not even thought to help. Not a thought flashed in to my mind. Blank. 5 minutes later, I realized i just ignored someone who need help. Maybe if there were a journalist with camera who shot the moment, that picture; capturing me who just passed through, could win something on photo contest. I feel bad afterward. In Primary school, I had taught to help elder or blind man or whoever they are who needs help, in this case, crossing the street. So easy to learn, so easy to judge but never easy to do.

          Another example, a certain day in Jakarta I was sitting on a busway. So tired after have a long journey from one mall to another mall. Middle-age lady was enter while carrying a little child and looking for a seat. I could just offer mine to her, but i didn't. I was thinking, let other people do that kindness because at the moment, I was tired. I will give my seat next time. And guess what? No one was offering their seat. Neither do I. Usually the voice within will come to judges, but the mind always defend as well. That's why I never gave my seat for the several next time.

          Being a person like this is not truly my nature. It through a long process. Being a kind hearted person is not good for me. It is more like giving all my pride or let other stomping on my face. Hahahahaha,.. You see? The mind already defending itself. OK, now, let my voice within speak. Being kind-hearted person is not fun. But it will cause so much calm and happiness. No grudge. And the most important is, kindness is never ineffectual. It always worth to do. But never easy to ACT. FACT.